So let’s talk perspective for a moment. In 68 days I’ll have been on this planet a marvelous 30 years. Roughly 10,958 days, 262,968 hours, and give or take 15,778,090 minutes. That’s a lot of time. It’s funny, because if you’ve never taken the time to quantify the sheer quantity (or lack there of) of time you have been alive it makes you realize how short life really is. You see, I’ve talked about what the number 30 means in terms of dating. Like pressures to be married by then (Here). Or how it’s this magical/mythical number that denotes the beginning of the end. But amidst my minor age related freak out about all I have or haven’t done in my 10,958 days, something pretty spectacular happened. I had an epiphany.
The truth is, 30 is a bit scary. It’s not the fact that I’m 30, it’s not a big deal I don’t care that I’m 30 compared to 29. It’s that at 30, there is a whole hell of a lot that I haven’t done with my life yet that looking back at it now, I know is something I must accomplish over the next 30 years. One thing I think age brings is a much greater sense of internal clarity. That as much as you freak out about getting older, the truth is that it provides you with a clearer understanding and direction of where you want to push your future towards. That’s obviously going to be drastically different for everybody but for me I’ve taken these precious few moments of clarity to start formulating what I want out of the next 30 years of my life. I guess you could consider this my 1/3 life breakthrough. If you’re going to do one thing today, think about breaking up your life into 1/3’s and realize that the first 3rd of your life, is really just setting you up for the best that life has to offer over your last 60 some odd years left on earth.
I have this habit of writing a lot of solid or flawed advice for people. Most if not all of it has been taken from some sort of life experience that I have gone through that I feel could have an impact on someone reading my words. The tricky part is, or the trouble really, is that I seldom if ever take my own advice. Sometimes I have this sad realization that I can dish it but I quite honestly can not take the hard truth about the positives and negatives in my life. So this bit of clarity that I have been afforded over the last couple days, reflecting on my life has really given me some amazing hopes, dreams, and plans for what to do with the rest of my life. The next step is to actually take these dreams and make them a reality.
The fact of life is pretty simple. It’s short. Startlingly so. You have only a limited number of years, months, weeks, days, and minutes to scrounge together moments and make the most of them. For me, it’s always been a matter of doing what makes me happy, I’m numero uno, and at times that has been at a definite detriment to those around me. That’s going to change. For me, I’ve constantly bemoaned about my inability to find “the one”. Because in life if you’re not with your soulmate living every day with them then what’s the point right? Wrong. I think the truth is, that life is and always will be about the journey. Life is as much about the highs as it is about the lows. The tricky part is being able to ascertain just the tiniest little minuscule moments in life that are truly remarkable.
Look, there’s no denying that over the last couple months I have been freaking (internally) about my age. About what 30 means, and about where I am and where I’m not. And that’s easy to do, and probably easy to understand. What you need to do, and what I needed to realize is that age is a number. It is no more a defining characteristic than your job title, your eye color, or your favorite band. It is a part of you, but it is but a microcosm of who I am and who I want to be. Realize that life is short and appreciate it. Realize that the things that make you happy are things you should perpetually strive for and that those are things you should replicate. Travel the world, fall in love, get a tattoo, make mistakes, and live your life. Do what makes you happy and if you’re lucky enough things will eventually fall into place in all that you do.